who would have knew that..

who would have thought that my life would be spinning in such an unexpected way for the past 4 months.

who would have knew that...

• i'd be out of what i truly call MEMORIES and a home.
• i'd be secretly STRUGGLING emotionally for so long.
• i'd be thinking of HIM again & wonder if he'll make a U-TURN.
  
• i'd truly lose a friend who we both thought would never FADE.
  
• you&i are decreasing the definition of LOVE.

WHO WOULD HAVE KNEW THAT I WOULD BE LOSING MYSELF.

its one rainy day today... and all that has been in my mind are the past 4 months.
sure people say

• dont stress nor worry
• everything will be alright & fall into place
• im here for you & im a call away

but its NOT easy to do especially when everything you have been SNATCHED AWAY from your arms that you THOUGHT you had such a strong grip.

people would be saying at the this point that i shouldnt be in such a depressing and negative state of mind.. but how could the events within those 4 months not be the BIGGEST SCAR ACROSS MY HEART?